This week at my weigh in I lost 1.4 pounds, ugh! I know it is going down not up. I really should not watch shows like The Biggest Loser. So my total loss is 35, I should be happy, but I don't feel as HAPPY as I think I should. I still have so much more to go. Starting at 371 and having so much to lose it seems like it is so far away. I need to be happy with 35 pounds. I am afraid, of what? My clothes not fitting, not recognizing the person in the mirror, and how do I live like a healthy person? The last time I remember being under 300 was when I was in High School. So my entire adult life I have lived in this size body even though at points it may have been less or more. I felt like it was 300. My biggest fear is what if I fail, what if I do give up? I have never been able to finish this all the many times before. Trust me it is not fun going to TOPS(take off pounds sensibly) in the 5th grade, Weight Watchers in the 7th and about 5 other times before this time, the 3 day diet, Slim Fast you get the picture right? I don't know what will happen tomorrow but I do know I am going to try my best and rely on the Lord to help me with the rest. That is the difference this time I know I can't do it alone. I can do it one day at a time and even one minute at a time. The other thing is if I do fail I don't have to give up completely. In my past it has been all or nothing. If I messed up in the morning then I might as well throw in the towel for the entire day then it made it easy to give up the next day. This time is different because I understand that a bad day does not equal complete failure. As for my other fears, I pray when the time comes I will understand that it is what is in the inside that makes a person and even though I will look different I will still be the obsessive compulsive, ADD, fun, loving person I am now.
And a side note:
I love Spring. I was married to Phillip on Easter weekend 8 years ago. I have always enjoyed Spring in South. Every where I look I can see touches of God's love. He created something so beautiful I can see His love in every bloom. What better time to marry my best friend, Phillip Childs. He is such a great husband and he is good at laundry and he loves me fat or thin I know he loves the inside me.
The flowers remind me of the Resurrection of Jesus Christ whom I am so thankful for. It was so much fun teaching this in Sunday School this morning. I am so blessed to be know Jesus Christ suffered and was resurrected for me and you.
We have this weeks dinners cooked and ready to heat up. We have no meat lasagna, turkey tetrazzini, sour cream chicken breasts, bbq chicken with carrots and then one night Boca Burgers.
I am starting this blog to record about this journey I am taking and to share with my family and friends about my life. I am starting to eat better and beginning to exercise more. I have tried this many times before but this time I am going to succeed. Starting weight was 375! This journey actually started 10/20/11 but my blog is starting today 12/7/11. Come along and enjoy with me my adventures with me.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Sunday, March 18, 2012
A weekend of gladness!
I am so thankful for this:
The Serenity Prayer | |
 | God grant me the serenity Living one day at a time;
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Trust in the LORD with all your heart Proverbs 3, 5-6 So this weekend has been wonderful. I stepped on the scale and it said 334!!!!!!! Less than I weighed on my wedding 8 years ago. I was so happy. Next goal is to be below 300. Phillip and I celebrated our proposal anniversary(8 years). We went to Stone Mountain and played mini golf. It was a lot easier for me to walk around I noticed I was not as out of breath has I had been in the past. I also was not looking around for a place to sit and rest while waiting on others to have their turn. But I was tugging at my shorts to keep them from falling off(time to get a belt)! Here is a picture.
We then used our extra Weight Watchers points and treated ourselves to a Krispy Kreme doughnut trip. Then we had dinner at Woody's near Piedmont Park, Philly Cheese Steak!!! We met the Big Cheese(his words, not mine) and he was super nice. We will be going back there, when I have 14 points to spare. I wonder how many people celebrate the day the got engaged? We are "lucky" it was on St. Patty's Day that makes it easier to remember. On another note, tomorrow is my ultrasound and I have my biopsy on April 10th. These tests are in preparation to see if I will be able to conceive a child. I also have heard from a state program that I might be able to qualify for that will help us, I am working on all that paper work. I know the Lord has a plan for us, it may not be this but He is preparing us. There is a child who will need a loving home in a few months and that might be what the plan is for us, we will just have to be patient, prepare, and pray. And lastly, today I was asked to teach the Gospel Principals Sunday School class for at least the next few weeks. I am so excited!!!! Now, off to prepare my lesson for next week.
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Sun dried tomato pesto pizza(serves 4)
We were so hungry when we returned home from church today. I looked in the fridge and found the dough we got last night from Trader Joe's, pesto(2Tbs), 2% cheese(1Cup), garlic(1 clove) and a few sun dried tomatoes cut up and tossed on! 15 minutes total to make and bake. Oh yeah it was 9 Weight Watchers points of heaven.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Monday, March 12, 2012
Back to normal!
Well, finally I am starting to feel human again. My energy is slowly increasing. I feel like I have not been much help around the house and it shows. Dirty dishes, clothes cleaned (thanks to Phillip) but in piles not put away, the dining room table covered, UGH! I have a bag full of medicine I have to take to get over this nasty bronchitis! I really felt bad because I needed help from my friends and I am so blessed that on two days this past week friends brought dinner so Phillip could have a rest, and man o man I was so thankful. I have missed church and was starting to stress out about my calling at church and doing a good job because I am so sickL I finally understand that if I am doing all I can do that is all that is expected. I have enjoyed my scriptures reading and my prayer time more this two weeks.
I was really tempted with fast food and sweets!!!!! WHY O WHY do I want fast food and sweets when I feel bad????? When I weighed in on Thursday I still lost weight, only 0.6 pounds, but a loss is better than a gain.
Now, to motivated to move more. I have been resting for weeks now. So back to the grind, tomorrow I will be working on my house, Wednesday I will take a walk with Phillip, and Thursday back to the YMCA!!!! I am not planning on a big loss this week when I weigh in because of all the medicine, but I still have done well enough for another small loss!
This is the hardest thing I have ever done.
Sunday, March 4, 2012
A not so fun weekend:(
So this weekend was so bad. Both me and my husband have been sick. We hardly even left the house. It was a good thing I had our monthly menu planned ahead of time and knew what to buy at the store Friday night. We had everything we needed except for some soup I wanted Saturday. My sweet husband ventured out to buy me some chicken soup! This weekend included lots of TV, sleep, and extra fluids. I must say it is very hard for me when I am sick not to just eat everything in sight. You know that "If I eat.......(cake, cookies, pie, pizza, etc) it will surely make me feel better?" So I am very thankful for the following story our Weight Watchers leader shared 2 weeks ago.
She had just started attending meetings about 4 months prior. Her group leader was awesome, funny and very understanding. One day the leaders husband died suddenly at age 48 of a heart attack. So weeks went by and everyone wondered if the leader would even return, they missed and loved her so much. The substitutes tried hard but it was just not the same. About two months or so passed and she returned. The leader took a few minutes and thanked everyone for the cards, flowers, prayers and love from them. Then she said she had something important to share. People in her life knew she was a Weight Watchers leader, but that did not stop all the food from pouring in, cake, cookies, homemade brownies etc... she said her dinning room table was covered. She said every time she went into that room it was so hard for her not to just give in and eat. But she had a thought, prompting of sorts "will eating any of this food bring my husband back, will it change the fact I am alone, will eating change anything? NO it will not and she was able to walk away!" Food will never FIX anything except hunger.
I will never forget this!
March 2012 Monthly Dinner Menu
A few folks have asked for my menu so I thought I would share!
March 2012
| Sun | Mon | Tue | Wed | Thu | Fri | Sat |
| | | | | 1 | 2 | 3 |
| BONUS SWEETS: Peanut butter oatmeal softies PPC 287 & cherry pie PPC 290 | | | | Left Over’s | Lunch: Fri. or Sat mushroom feta frittata Dinner: Date Night | Stuffed Chicken Breasts RSG 99 w/ peas |
| 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 |
| Pork Tenderloin w/ veggies PPC pg 137 | Pork Stir-Fry w/ rice | Herbed Chicken Tenders RSG 96 w/ Brussels Sprouts | Homemade Pizza, tomato, mushroom, pepperoni BDFE 50 | Mozzarella, tomato pasta, PPC 71 | Date Night | Skillet Chicken w/ artichokes & roasted peppers PFC 107 |
| 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 |
| Crock Pot Orange Chicken w/ rice | Southwest Turkey Burger PFC 137 | Stuffed Cabbage Casserole PPC 132 | Spaghetti with Chicken and Tomatoes, pinterest | Left Over’s | Date Night | Chicken & Rice from the freezer |
| 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 |
| Lasagna BDFE 138 | Pork Lo Mein RSG 169 | Orange & honey chicken W/ couscous RSG 91 | Left Over’s | Chicken Sausages w/ mashed potatoes and broccoli | Date Night | Baked Turkey and spinach Spaghetti |
| 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 |
| Sour Cream Chicken, pintrest w/ corn | BBQ Chicken and carrots | Turkey Tetrazzini BDFE 23 | Left Over’s | Bocca Bugers | Date Night | Parmesan crusted turkey cutlets |
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