Blueberry Dutch Baby

I made this Weight Watchers recipe today and it was very tasty and
only 5 points per serving!

So long Little Debbie! Hello flavor!

This past Saturday was my husband’s Birthday! So he got to choose where we would eat at. He really wanted Chinese food. We talked about where we should go. Hands down we decided buffets were definitely out of the question. So we picked a place that had great lunch prices and smaller portions. I was able to stay within my daily points. That was a great choice. Later in the day, a very bad choice was made. We were driving up to Buford about 45 minutes away to have dinner with my brother and his family. I knew we needed to run an errand for my mom, I just not realize how long it would be. I forgot to pack a snackL VERY BAD IDEA!!!! I was getting very moody and getting a headache. So to keep me from going MAD we spied a Sonic a wee ways away. We drove up and ordered two diet cokes and two bananas! They guy said that was the strangest order that he had ever heard. Then he proceeded to make sure we did not really want something else. HAHAHAHA Priceless moment! So the restaurant was busy and we could not get in till 8pm. I thought I was going to scream but I didn’t, and I was not a happy person. After what seemed like forever we got there and were seated. Out the window I see my arch nemesis, LITTLE CAESARS… oh how I was tempted(this crazy lady loves some crazy bread). Instead, for an appetizer I had an ear of corn with no butter, yummy! I was much happier after that. Lesson learned NEVER leave home without snacks and a bottle of water.

Sunday came and we had to make a trip to Thomaston, GA to visit Phillip’s dad. He always wants to go to this old nasty buffet place. I really tried to make healthy choices but everything was soaked in butter! Then his dad kept asking if that was all we were going to eat? And why were we not eating desert? UGH!

So on this trip Thomaston; I planned to have a Little Debbie snack cake. I planned my points and had been dreaming of this wonderful tasty treat for weeks. I remember when I could down (eat) an entire box and not think twice about it. I loved them and had to have them. I would pass a General Dollar store and always comment I know they have Little Debbie in there! Somehow my car would always drive there. And I swear those buggers would just jump in! So, I was in for a big NASTY surprise it tasted like wax!!! I was shocked, I was betrayed, and I had been dumped by Little Debbie herself! Never again, never again! It was truly a waste of my extra Weight Watchers points. They are cheap, easy and taste like wax. I deserve much tastier food. So here’s to flavor from now own!

My bike!

Ok so with a weight loss of ZERO this past week it took a lot not to just give up! The last two weigh ins have really sucked. First it was a gain of half a pound then nothing. I am keeping track of my Weight Watchers points and exercising more than I have in a very long time. This Thursday will be my 15^th week going to Weight Watchers! I was in tears during the morning meeting and all I could think about was “why is this happening”. So I had to go the night meeting so I could understand the lesson for this week. I began to think back of all the other times I had tried to lose weight. It seems that when I get to this point it is like my body starts to freak out and start holding on to everything I eat. So many times before I would just stop and then gain back what I lost plus a few more pounds. So I am not going to stop. My group leader said I should try to lower my points by 3 this week and see what happens.

I have been looking for a bicycle that I could fit on and ride safely and cost less than 700 bucks. I found one Friday!!!!!!!! It is basic black and not very pretty but I felt safe on it and the guy at the store was very sweet. It still was pretty expensive and we will be eating from our food storage this week but it was so worth it. I was starting to get bored at the gym and needed this for my sanity. We then got Phil’s bike out of storage. So we rode a little on Sat. and rode a little further today. I remember as a child riding my bike for hours and loving it!!! I love my bike now it even has a basket! Where are we storing our bikes? Right on the porch so we see them every day! Not in the basement. I am sure I will be able to ride a little further tomorrow and then back to the gym on Wednesday for boot camp.

Current length of my hair!

What joy a new day brings!

I am so happy yesterday is over. I am also glad Weight Watchers gives a few bonus points to use for nights like last night.

Woke up this morning and went to the Y. Boot Camp, my arms are killing me, in a good way. Everyone in that class is so nice and they don't care how fat I am. They are supporting me for trying. I started the day strong and am ending it strong. Thankful for all the support from family and friends when I was having a bad day yesterday.

So, as I end today I am thankful for my blessings. I go weigh in tomorrow with my head held high. I used my extra points but I was not over for this week:) And I moved more this week than ever before.

Update: I stayed the same at this weeks weigh in! Here's to a better week!

Failed today:(

So I rushed home to make my meeting at 8pm only to find it was
canceled tonight:( So then on the way home all I could think about was
"Folk's" peach muffins. I did track my points for each one I ate!
Total muffins 6 equals 23 weight watchers points, ugh not smart! Why
do they not sell them by ones????

After thought, it was so not worth my extra weekly points;( and I best
be getting my fat butt up and to the gym in the morning!!!!

So why is it so hard for me? I had a plan but I did not have a back up plan:( Why could I not just eat one muffin? Why could I not just stop? I do not know. I am very disappointed in myself but I am sure this will not be my only failure in this journey. I WILL keep trying. Crying over eating muffins? Really what is wrong with me?

Have you tried these?

So today I had a coupon for these! So I tried them. They tasted so
yummy! 22 chips for 3 Weight Watcher points;) I love salt and vinegar
and these were such a rewarding find.

Imagine That!

Well at first I was not going to post anything this week because I gained half a pound when I weighed in!!! ugh! I counted my points perfectly. I do realize that I had a Doctors appointment the morning of the weigh in thus I weighed in a little later than usual. So I could have just gave up! That would have been easy right? I did everything and still gained what's the point? NOT ME, not this time!!!!! I went back and tried to figure out how this week can produce a better result. I need to move more. I have made many great choices last week but I could have moved a little more. So I planned to move more. I even got my husband Phillip to attend a class with me at the YMCA.

I love the YMCA almost as much as I love Weight Watchers! Here in the part of Atlanta there are a few I could go to. I have made plans to attend boot camp this week and have asked a friend to go with me, this way it will be harder to just roll over and go back to sleep. Last week my sleep was so messed up. Seems like every time my sleeping is off I gain weight. You might think half a pound is nothing but I worked really hard and to have any gain at all is very sad.

My hair is really starting to bug me! I look in the mirror and think "man, you look so old with all that grey hair!" So I have lost 15 pounds and I am getting closer to getting my hair cut and fixed. So this is why I am so upset about a gain:( I will be so happy to do something with this mop head of hair. My hair is the longest it has been in 20years and very grey. So here's to moving more this week and loosing on the scale Thursday when I weigh in and getting closer to my 100 pounds lost so I can fix this messy hair!!!!!!!!!!

I learned two things this week. First, I really miss being able to afford Ms. Betty to come and clean our house. She did it much faster and better than me and Phillip. But on the other hand when I am cleaning I am moving more! Right? Second thing I learned is, I can have friends over for dinner and count my points and not have to worry about them encouraging me to eat more than I should. In this lesson also came the knowledge that it is just fine not to serve dessert. My friends were very ok with it and we still had a good time.

My recliner has been replaced!

Yummy low points snack!

So today I went to Yogli Mogli and had a wonderful frozen treat! They
have lots of non fat options to choose from and many fruit choices for
zero points toppings;) I am living life and no longer living to eat!

Goodbye old comfy friend!

So today we had a yard sale and I decided it was time to lose the big comfy chair. I loved my chair so much that some days(most days to be honest) I would come home and sit in my chair and then not move till bedtime. I have a valid reason to rest a lot, I do have Fibromyalgia. I am now choosing not to let that(pain) be the reason I don't exercise. So I said my goodbyes today and then it did not sell:( I did not bring it back into the living room I put it in the basement to try and sell again in two weeks. One memory I will never forget is when my family was here for Thanksgiving and my mom went to sit down and it flipped over with her in it!!!!!! She was fine but it was kinda funny:)

P.S. It is not in the best shape either and never buy a recliner from Big Lots, just saying.

Love my walking sticks!

My mom got me these for Christmas and I love them. Here is a picture from today!

"it's not what you eat but what's eating you"

So I heard this quote today and started to think about it. What is eating me? Well right now the biggest thing eating me is having to move but at least I am getting pretty good at packing! Also, I am scared I will no longer be able to afford going to Weight Watchers when we have to move. Interesting enough at 1st I thought well I will just try it for a month and see how it goes. I had done Weight Watchers before many times and after a few weeks the newness and motivation ends and I stop going. This time I fell in love with the program and I also fell in love with myself. I am not sure why I find it easier to not give up on others but easy to give up on myself. I love points and the new program where fruits and veggies cost me zero points! I am worth not giving up on!

I am not sure when we will have to move or even where. This is so not easy for me. I like to plan ahead, way ahead. In the past I turned to food. I wonder why I think/thought food could help? What can food do? So I am learning why I need to eat and how much. It was said to me that Weight Watchers is making me OCD about food and points but I see it as a way to control and be accountable. Not counting points and eating freely got me to over 350 pounds!!!!! So at times when I am thinking" if I just had___________ (you fill in the blank), ice cream, candy, soda I would feel better. I know that is a BIG FAT LIE if I am hungry food can help. But can food really make me feel better? Why am I feeling bad, mad, happy, or sad? I understand that I have for many years been able to come up with any reason to over eat. No more excuses.